
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
From Outcast to Confident (Final Version "A Time My World Changed")
The world seemed like a dark placefeeling unloved
Alone
living in a sinister shadow
concealing my feelings
losing my faith
thinking disturbing thoughts
considering suicide
worried of opening myself up to the world
scared what others will think of me
my heart had this damaged sensation
felt like nobody cared about my feelings
being judgemental of my outer self, caring less about my inner self
feeling melancholy deep inside
curious why everyone treated me so differently
like I'm invisible
I didn't like how my life was turning out
felt like I didn't belong
Desperately
wanting to fit in
Unexpectedly
my chains are finally free!
like a miracle he changed everything
he noticed my existence
treating me with kindness
giving me faith
caring about the person inside me rather than the outside
making me a bolder person
building up my low self-esteem
no longer caring what other people think of me
Now I only care what I think about myself
becoming someone who I never thought I would be
bringing integrity to my life
lighting up my darkest moments
Thinking about him when my heart feels empty again
He heals up my sorrowful heart
revealing my pride
opening my veiled confidence
showing the world what's inside my heart
revealing my hopes, goals, and dreams for the future
expressing my feelings I kept hidden for a long time
determined who my real inner self is
as I glance into the mirror
I see a reflection of a girl I've never met before
a girl with courage
because of him I'm
No longer afraid to show who I really am
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Longer short story: My Eternal Desire

I WILL always remember this guy, who I had a crush on for a long time. First of all, his name is Jordan. Oh my god, he has the most gorgeous blond hair I've ever seen on a guy! The shade of his blond hair reminds me of sunshine. His eyes...............Oh, whenever he looks at me, my heart melts dreamily. As for his personality, he's very easy to talk to, and has such a generous heart inside him.
WHEN I first met Jordan in 2007, we really hit it off. I have to admit, when I first laid my eyes upon him, I secretly had a crush on Jordan. At first, I thought we started out as a friendship..........until, out of the blue, he brought up he wanted me as his girlfriend! My thoughts were, Wow! No other guy had the courage to say something like that to me! I mean, no other guy ever selected me as their girlfriend, most guys consider me as their buddy. Anyway, after Jordan said that, it made my heart feel special.
THE ONE memory I will ALWAYS cherish is the time when we had our first kiss! Now, it seemed like a typical hanging out day at his house, but then came the part where Jordan brought up something unexpected for me.
"Courtney, this may be an embarrassing thing for me to say, but........" Jordan was saying in an apprehensive tone.
"What are you going to tell me?" I asked, an ocean of anticipation rising in me!
"Well..........See, I never kissed a girl before!" he replied to my dismay!
AFTER HE said that, I was curious where he was going with this. I could not believe he had the courage to say that as well! Now Jordan is my kind of guy, the one who's NOT afraid to reveal his confidence to a girl! He asked if I was willing to take this risk by trying our first kiss. Obviously I said yes, without consideration. I mean, I never kissed a guy before! This was my chance to FINALLY see what it felt like!!! So, slowly, we began approaching each other, face-to-face. The two of us hugged each other to start with, and then................and then............and THEN WE KISSED! It was the type of kiss you'd see in movies. My eyes were closed, couldn't resist.....it felt more romantic that way. As Jordan and I continued kissing, I felt this passionate sensation develop inside me. Kissing isn't as bad as I thought it would. Actually, it felt great, especially your first one! After we're finished, still wrapped in each other's arms, Jordan complimented, "You're a good kisser, Courtney." I replied thanks. We kissed for the second time to complete our evening. Wow! My first kiss......................best and most remarkable thing that's ever happened to me!
EVER SINCE our first kiss, I longed to have a serious relationship with Jordan. I'm sick and tired of being single, I desperately want a boyfriend in my life, someone I can snuggle up with on the couch, hug and kiss passionately, dating, you name it. Whenever I see a boyfriend and girlfriend together, I tend to get jealous, since that's something I want.
THE ONE THING that broke my heart was during the 2008 summer, I didn't see Jordan at all! I pictured the two of us dating over the summer, falling in love, making this the best summer I'd ever had! So, when I reached my senior year, middle of September, as I was getting off the STEP bus, unexpectedly..................THERE HE WAS! Jordan was standing outside my school, he doesn't even go to CPHS! When I saw him there, an immediate smile spread across my face and happiness filled me up! Since I hadn't seen him all summer, lately my heart had this empty feeling, but as soon as I saw Jordan, the emptiness rapidly filled its spot again. We were talking to each other, re-bonding, and I told him, "I really missed you, Jordan." He replied he missed me too, with tenderness in his tone. What a sweetheart! Nowadays he's always been on my heart like a tattoo. Every night, tossing and turning, I dream about Jordan. Now I'm wondering, could all this thinking about him be a symptom of falling in love?
I HAVE to be honest here, I think Jordan already has a girlfriend, that's what he keeps telling me, but even though he's seeing someone, I still have strong and deep feelings for him. I rather see him only once a year than see somebody else every single day. One night, when I was about to drift off to sleep, I found myself crying, and Jordan's the reason for my teardrops. I honestly don't care if he's dating someone else. My thoughts and feelings for him will always remain in my heart.
I LIKE it that Jordan accepts my inner self rather than my outer self. Well, I may not be the most beautiful woman, but why the heck does that matter?!? Beautiful, what does that mean anyway? You don't need to be the most attractive and hottest person to fall in love. Anyone can fall in love, no matter who you are or what you look like!
I HAVE the desire to fall in love with Jordan someday, longing to see what being in love feels like, see what I'm missing out on. Never once have I been in love before, I don't know why. I am the dating material, they just have to give me a chance to let me reveal that side of myself.
WHAT IS love anyway? Here's a couple quotes as well as a passage:
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return."
"Love is like swallowing hot chocolate before it has cooled off. It takes you by surprise at first, but keeps you warm for a long time."
Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes.
AS FOR the future, I dream of marrying Jordan someday as well as having a family, sharing our lives together.
WHEN I first met Jordan in 2007, we really hit it off. I have to admit, when I first laid my eyes upon him, I secretly had a crush on Jordan. At first, I thought we started out as a friendship..........until, out of the blue, he brought up he wanted me as his girlfriend! My thoughts were, Wow! No other guy had the courage to say something like that to me! I mean, no other guy ever selected me as their girlfriend, most guys consider me as their buddy. Anyway, after Jordan said that, it made my heart feel special.
THE ONE memory I will ALWAYS cherish is the time when we had our first kiss! Now, it seemed like a typical hanging out day at his house, but then came the part where Jordan brought up something unexpected for me.
"Courtney, this may be an embarrassing thing for me to say, but........" Jordan was saying in an apprehensive tone.
"What are you going to tell me?" I asked, an ocean of anticipation rising in me!
"Well..........See, I never kissed a girl before!" he replied to my dismay!
AFTER HE said that, I was curious where he was going with this. I could not believe he had the courage to say that as well! Now Jordan is my kind of guy, the one who's NOT afraid to reveal his confidence to a girl! He asked if I was willing to take this risk by trying our first kiss. Obviously I said yes, without consideration. I mean, I never kissed a guy before! This was my chance to FINALLY see what it felt like!!! So, slowly, we began approaching each other, face-to-face. The two of us hugged each other to start with, and then................and then............and THEN WE KISSED! It was the type of kiss you'd see in movies. My eyes were closed, couldn't resist.....it felt more romantic that way. As Jordan and I continued kissing, I felt this passionate sensation develop inside me. Kissing isn't as bad as I thought it would. Actually, it felt great, especially your first one! After we're finished, still wrapped in each other's arms, Jordan complimented, "You're a good kisser, Courtney." I replied thanks. We kissed for the second time to complete our evening. Wow! My first kiss......................best and most remarkable thing that's ever happened to me!
EVER SINCE our first kiss, I longed to have a serious relationship with Jordan. I'm sick and tired of being single, I desperately want a boyfriend in my life, someone I can snuggle up with on the couch, hug and kiss passionately, dating, you name it. Whenever I see a boyfriend and girlfriend together, I tend to get jealous, since that's something I want.
THE ONE THING that broke my heart was during the 2008 summer, I didn't see Jordan at all! I pictured the two of us dating over the summer, falling in love, making this the best summer I'd ever had! So, when I reached my senior year, middle of September, as I was getting off the STEP bus, unexpectedly..................THERE HE WAS! Jordan was standing outside my school, he doesn't even go to CPHS! When I saw him there, an immediate smile spread across my face and happiness filled me up! Since I hadn't seen him all summer, lately my heart had this empty feeling, but as soon as I saw Jordan, the emptiness rapidly filled its spot again. We were talking to each other, re-bonding, and I told him, "I really missed you, Jordan." He replied he missed me too, with tenderness in his tone. What a sweetheart! Nowadays he's always been on my heart like a tattoo. Every night, tossing and turning, I dream about Jordan. Now I'm wondering, could all this thinking about him be a symptom of falling in love?
I HAVE to be honest here, I think Jordan already has a girlfriend, that's what he keeps telling me, but even though he's seeing someone, I still have strong and deep feelings for him. I rather see him only once a year than see somebody else every single day. One night, when I was about to drift off to sleep, I found myself crying, and Jordan's the reason for my teardrops. I honestly don't care if he's dating someone else. My thoughts and feelings for him will always remain in my heart.
I LIKE it that Jordan accepts my inner self rather than my outer self. Well, I may not be the most beautiful woman, but why the heck does that matter?!? Beautiful, what does that mean anyway? You don't need to be the most attractive and hottest person to fall in love. Anyone can fall in love, no matter who you are or what you look like!
I HAVE the desire to fall in love with Jordan someday, longing to see what being in love feels like, see what I'm missing out on. Never once have I been in love before, I don't know why. I am the dating material, they just have to give me a chance to let me reveal that side of myself.
WHAT IS love anyway? Here's a couple quotes as well as a passage:
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return."
"Love is like swallowing hot chocolate before it has cooled off. It takes you by surprise at first, but keeps you warm for a long time."
Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes.
AS FOR the future, I dream of marrying Jordan someday as well as having a family, sharing our lives together.
Monday, September 22, 2008
55 word short story: My Eternal Desire
Jordan is his name. He's so dreamy, gorgeous blond hair and handsome eyes! He's the first guy I've ever kissed, feeling this passion sensation develop inside me. Like a tattoo, he's always on my heart..............Sigh....................I dream falling in love with Jordan eternally. I long for seeing what it's like to be in love.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
The Black House (scary story play)

(Scene: April 25, 2007, Aidan Keller and Stephanie Mosley have been boyfriend and girlfriend ever since they were juniors. As they were walking home from school, along a sidewalk near some creepy-looking woods, they were discussing about their senior prom and other things. Later in the discussion, they brought up this mysterious house called The Black House. Residents claims the Black House to be haunted, while others say it's just a deserted house)
AIDAN
(holding Stephanie's hand)
(Anticipated) I can't believe our senior prom is just around the corner!
STEPHANIE
(Ecstatic) I can't believe it either! Our senior prom is going to be the time of our lives!
I've been looking forward to this day since freshman year!
AIDAN
(Giving her a quick sideways glance)
Doesn't everybody?
STEPHANIE
I guess so........
AIDAN
(Looking at Stephanie) So, what does your dress look like, Steph?
STEPHANIE
(Looking back at Aidan) Well, the length of my dress goes all the way to the ground.
There are little beads on every part of the dress and the color's champagne.
AIDAN
Sounds like a nice dress.
STEPHANIE
It is, and when I first tried it on, my mom said it looked gorgeous with my blond hair.
AIDAN
You're gorgeous, Steph, no matter what you wear.
STEPHANIE
(Sighing merrily) Thank you, Aidan. (After she said that, Stephanie and Aidan kissed each
other, then continued walking)
AIDAN
Hey, uh, Steph, let's talk about our after party for a minute.
STEPHANIE
Okay.
AIDAN
It's going to take place at your house, right?
(Stephanie nodded)
AIDAN
So, have you planned out any agenda for the party?
STEPHANIE
Actually, you can do whatever you want. After all, my parents are gone for the whole
weekend. I have all sorts of things we can do. Swim in my pool, watch movies in our theatre room, play video games, you name it.
AIDAN
Video games?!? Steph, I didn't even know you had video games!
STEPHANIE
(Smiling angelically) You didn't ask.
AIDAN
I didn't mean for it to sound that way. It's just; you don't seem like the video game person.
STEPHANIE
It's okay, Aidan. You didn't mean anything by it. But I play video games all the time.
AIDAN
(Nodding rapidly, a little glow in his eyes)
Really?!?
STEPHANIE
You don't believe me, do you?
AIDAN
No, I believe you. I can't picture you though.
STEPHANIE
(Giving him a sideways glance)
(Serious tone) Well, believe it.
(Aidan snickered. He's never heard Stephanie speak in a serious tone like that before)
AIDAN
And a swimming pool?! Nice!
STEPHANIE
Seems to me you don't have a pool at your house, Aidan.
(She's never been to Aidan's house before ever)
AIDAN
Aw, why would I need my own pool when my sweet girlfriend has one I can swim in?
(Stephanie smiles while giggling. But abruptly, her smile faded and her giggling didn't last long.
An apprehensive look grew upon her face. Her eyes grew wide with dismay. Stephanie's skin
was as white as snow. Aidan noticed)
AIDAN
(Grabbing her arm)
Stephanie? You okay? You look so pale.
(Stephanie didn't reply. She remained frozen, with that worried look on her face still)
STEPHANIE
(Hesitated).......................................(Then she smiled and began laughing) Wow! I can't believe
you fell for my concerned look! (She carried on laughing)
AIDAN
Alright, Steph, I admit I fell for your joke. But you made it seem so real though.
STEPHANIE
Well, I do take an acting class in school.
AIDAN
Why did you pull that joke on me anyway?
STEPHANIE
I just felt like joking with you before going to a special evening tomorrow night.
AIDAN
Oh, I see. You had to get it out of your system, don't you?
STEPHANIE
Exactly, Aidan..............You know, I'm astounded I haven't been to your house yet, after all this
time dating.
AIDAN
Oh, you don't want to see my house anyway. Mostly it's pretty cluttered and disorganized.
Besides, I'd prefer going out somewhere for our dates rather than chilling at one of our houses.
You remember our first date, Stephanie?
STEPHANIE
Of course I remember. You escorted me to a wonderful beach. I recall doing our first kiss underneath the moonlight during our first date. I'll never forget that.
AIDAN
Our first date sure was romantic.
(Stephanie only nodded, as if her mind was in a different world of its own)
STEPHANIE
(Petrified suddenly, changing the subject) Aidan.........I........I have a bad feeling about walking near these woods. I had this feeling of deja vu all of a sudden.
(Aidan and Stephanie resumed walking. As Stephanie was glancing over at the woods nearby, she suddenly recalls this one mysterious house. The same apprehensive look she had before grew on her face, but this time, she's solemn. Stephanie wrapped her arm around Aidan's waist to prevent from trembling)
AIDAN
(Wrapping his arm around her waist)
What's wrong?
STEPHANIE
(Frightened) ......I.......I just realized we are nearby this one house I hear others talking about. Residents claim it's haunted. Others say it's only haunted.
AIDAN
What about this house?
STEPHANIE
(Still frightened) Well, today in school, my friend, Donna, said she has seen that house before and knows about the history of it. Residents call the house the Black House because the house itself is black and since it's surrounded by a ton of trees, shadows cast upon it. Donna said 3 years ago----
AIDAN
(Cutting her off) Look, Steph, forget about the house right now.
STEPHANIE
(Ignoring Aidan, lowering her voice to a whisper) Donna said 3 years ago this family moved into the Black House. The mother and father had only one child. They had a son, and he was going to start high school, until one day his parents found him.........................dead!!! (Her voice became alarmed) Turns out one of the floorboards were loose in the house, on the third floor. The teenage boy walked on that floorboard, didn't know it was loose, and fell to his death! After the mom and dad attended their son's funeral, they fled the Black House and never came back. The house is now sealed up. Days later, teenage girls were disappearing! Some say they were kidnapped, others say the ghost of the boy who used to live in the Black House took them!
AIDAN
(Shocked) You think the Black House is really haunted?
STEPHANIE
That's what Donna said. She's read about it in the newspaper.
AIDAN
How do you know we are so close to the house?
STEPHANIE
Donna said it's somewhere near the woods right by our school and where are we?
(Motioned towards the woods)
AIDAN
Come on, Steph, that story your friend told you happened a long time ago. Besides, the house is deserted.
STEPHANIE
I don't care! Residents are still concerned about that house and so am I!
(Aidan pulled her close. As they continued their walk, the clouds were beginning to darken. Looks like a thunderstorm was on its way)
STEPHANIE
How do you even know the Black House is deserted?!?
(Aidan remained silent, Stephanie carried on)
STEPHANIE
(Petifried) Matter of fact, I've seen the Black House before....in person. Last year, I was taking my dog for a walk along this sidewalk and the Black House happened to be right beside us!! I was expecting the house to be deeper in the woods, but turns out, it's so close to the residential area! Back then, I knew nothing about the history of the Black House, because of curiosity, I approached it. But before I had the opportunity to ring the doorbell, I saw this boy staring down at me from the upstairs window. He looked so....eerie.....and his eyes were.......Oh! Cold-looking! Fear of what he was going to do, I turned around and ran away from the house. Never once have I gone back in those woods!
AIDAN
You........You actually saw someone inside the house?
STEPHANIE
Do I sound like I'm joking?!? Of course I saw him! I actually saw the boy who died in that house!
(Then her eyes focused the other direction, staring past Aidan. She hesitated)
AIDAN
Steph, what's the matter?
STEPHANIE
(Dramatically) What's the matter?! What's the matter?!? I'll tell you what the matter is! The Black House is right there! (She pointed towards the left side and Aidan followed her gaze. He saw it as well) Let's keep going! Seeing it there brings back last year's memory!
AIDAN
(Sighing) Cut the drama, okay? (He began heading towards the front door) Let's check it out!
STEPHANIE
(Dazed) Why?!?
(She could see there was no point in arguing, so she followed Aidan to the front door. The surroundings of the house is totally bathed in shadows, giving Stephanie the creeps)
STEPHANIE
(Her eyes grew wide with horror)
Aidan, I don't think this is such a good idea.
AIDAN
Haven't you been inside yet?
STEPHANIE
No, and I don't plan to.
AIDAN
(Grabbing her arm)
Come on! At least let's do some exploring.
(Aidan and Stephanie approached inside the house. The room was totally covered in shadows. Cobwebs hanged from the ceiling like streamers. Even the inside looks haunted. Stephanie hoped the boy who died doesn't become visible. They both explored the house. Each room was bathed in darkness. They both approached upstairs and reached the landing)
AIDAN
This isn't so bad, is it?
STEPHANIE
Whatever.
AIDAN
I can't believe we're actually inside a haunted house.
STEPHANIE
(Sarcastically) I'm very thrilled.
AIDAN
Calm down, will you, Stephanie? Your drama is getting on my nerves.
STEPHANIE
Sorry. (She didn't know what else to say) I can't believe I'm doing this.
AIDAN
Aw, come on, Stephanie! Where's your sense of adventure?
(He motioned to a room next to them) That room used to be the boy's room.
STEPHANIE
How do you know that, Aidan?
(Aidan didn't reply. Stephanie reluctantly explored the boy's room, for some stranger reason. Abruptly, she felt a churn of coldness in the room, as if a spirit's haunting her. She let out a shriek, turned and bolted out of the room, Aidan dashing after her)
AIDAN
(Facing her, gently grabbing her shoulders)
Whoa, Steph! What is it?
STEPHANIE
I thought I felt something..........I'm sorry, it only astonished me. It's nothing really.
AIDAN
Okay...............................Hey, let's check out the basement.
STEPHANIE
Alright. (She didn't feel like arguing)
(Holding hands, they went back downstairs. As soon as they reached the first floor, they approached this door they never revealed yet. Aidan smiled)
AIDAN
Aha! I bet this is where the basement is!
(He slowly opened the door. They made their way down the basement. Suddenly, she felt that cold swirl again, like how she felt upstairs. She couldn't help but let out a shriek. Stephanie ran upstairs with Aidan following her)
STEPHANIE
I just felt something again, something cold! I'm getting out of here!
(They both left Black House, Stephanie constantly repeating in her head, I will never set foot in that house again!)
AIDAN
Wow! Wasn't that something, visiting a real haunted house?
STEPHANIE
I agree...........Listen, Aidan, I'm going to head home on my own, I don't live far from here anyway.
AIDAN
Okay, Steph. Try not to consider about the house. Prom's this Saturday. We'll go as a couple and have an amusing time tomorrow.
STEPHANIE
Yeah, you're right, Aidan. Like you said, the story happened a long time ago. I'm just going to remove it from my mind and enjoy our senior prom.
(They kissed each other goodbye. As she went off the sidewalk, she headed towards the road, which leads to her neighborhood. As she was walking back home, she couldn't stop thinking how prom's this weekend and the after party. Abruptly, a police car approached her. A police officer stepped out. Stephanie was curious why a police car stopped right beside her)
STEPHANIE
Is there a problem, Officer?
(Thunder occurred, along with a flare of lightning)
POLICE OFFICER
Actually, I saw you on the sidewalk, near the Black House. Tell me, are you acquainted with anything about the Black House, including the family who previously lived there?
STEPHANIE
Yes.
POLICE OFFICER
I assume you don't know the name of the boy, who died in the Black House, do you?
STEPHANIE
I don't know his name, honestly.
POLICE OFFICER
(Lowered his voice to a cold whisper) His name is Aidan Keller.
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